| Balance on the Fold is a book of poetry written by Matt Lawver. The theme of the book has to do with the balance our souls are in and the constant questioning of what will happen after we die (heaven or hell?) or what on earth is going on with our souls as we live day to day. The songs are musical interpretations of the poems. | ![]() |
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On another note, the songs below were great fun to work on. Ghost and Turning Point feature Roman Chance from Mind Side Out and it was the first time we got to work together in many years. Several of the other tracks were done with my cousins Marty and Kelly, and my Aunt Suzie (also my god family). You can check out Kelly and Suzie's band, The Special Angel band. Matt wrote the original poems, I rewrote them for the songs and put together a general score, and Dave Fahey came in and gave us some energetic bass playing (as well as the great looking CD cover above). |
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An Audio Evolution: The Balance Sessions were originally recorded in Lost Angeles. The supervising engineer was Marty Geimer who also lent his silky speedy hands for the guitar work on Thoughts of Regret. After we got the final mix though... we decided to go back into the studio. In California, our biggest problem was lack of time. We did get some great takes put down though that would later find themselves in the final versions of the songs. |
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Leaving Dave, Marty, and the girls back in CA, Matt and I did some studio time in Phoenix. Again, after the mix had time to stew we still were not yet satisfied. But time was up, and the Blood of the Dragon session work had started. Balance was put on the backburner. After Blood of the Dragon was finished, as well as the Mutant project, I had some time to kill. I slowly started back into the Balance archives while working on Heartstrings. Currently, I am remastering the back catalog, from Oink Labs in Indiana. Those sessions will include this material. So, God willing, there will be even new, more finalized versions of the songs here sometime in 2005. Below are my current working demos. Be ready for some big surprises there as they evolve! |
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two songs put together. |
| 02 | ghost upon the walls | Roman from mind side out |
| 03 | amen | Suzy from Special Angel |
| 04 | stopped cold | |
| 05 | turning point in time | Roman from Mind Side Out |
| 06 | ways of the world | Kelly from Special Angel |
| 07 | Vizard's poetic justice | |
| 08 | hard cold crash | Dave from Mutant |
| 09 | mind of a madman | |
| 10 | shadows of light | Roman did the music. |
| 11 | thoughts of regret | Marty Geimer on guitar |
| 12 | where the rose resides | Suzy from Special Angel |
| 13 | no words left to right |
he who hunts the hunted strikes out against the son the son protects the wanted from the evil one when mercy versus power the powerless go strong to fight off all the emptiness with the power of the son the son that's born from deep within and makes our night the day also keeps our spirits strong shows the path that lights the way of power be a bad omen the twists of fate shall churn the hunter becomes the hunted in his invention he shall burnShadows of Night
in the candlelight the fire flickers and the shadows of night share their secret whispers they run and hide so as not to be followed the shadows of night plan our fates tomorrow can you see? can't you see? why cant you see what I can see? the truth in the heart of a lie the light were only dark can survive the way were no path is shown the life when no body is gone the evil behind a veil of trust the love in the passion of lust the secrets out in the plain of sight the dark that lights the skies at nightGhost upon the Walls
like a ghost upon the walls like she was never there at all perfume still smells sweet though the scent is incomplete retrace her every step only the memory is left now she walks these haunted hall like a ghost upon the walls like a breeze she saunters past feel her hands across my chest her caress smoothes my soul her absence is shakes me she hides in the shadows depths sizing me with every breath she stalks my every move echoes fill my tears though the words have disappeared memories of distant years silent, you take me there in my mind here image stands with my heart within her hands white dress and a powdered veil the pain is a living hellAmen
we are gathered here today to give our final blessing to the man whom they say has gone on to his final resting the pain that we feel can not be bought or borrowed our wounds will heal as memories fade into tomorrow as I think back on his life and all he had to offer through the good times and the bad a loyal husband, a steadfast father his heart was filled with love his soul salvation's laughter his touch like a soothing rain overflowed with wisdom's water his journey has begun it truly has not ended his battle fought and won faith never surrendered he flies now in my mind on angel's wings of glory in the kingdom past heaven's gate in all its grace and beauty as the last words rang out though the sound was hollow all the people all cried out their slow tears fill with sorrow as we close our eyes and pray to each his own remembering let the final words we say be from the heart and filled with meaning amenStopped Cold
she pressed her hand to my heart to feel the beat if it still repeat or has it stopped cold like hardened steel stopped cold like ice on the rail or time in its tracks stopped cold like the dead and the past stopped cold she leaned closer whispered in my ear can you hear my voice? can you still hear? have my words blown cold like hardened steel blown cold like a winter chill I'm frosted to the bone blown cold with an artic blast alone she pressed her finger to my fainting lips but they've gone numb they can't still kiss they've gone ice blue like hardened steel ice blue like the glaciers in hell burning flames of denial ice blue swimming the seas of betrayal ice blue she stared into my starry eyes to see the color if I'd gone blind but they've gone stone cold like hardened still stone cold like the wounds that wont heal shattered shards of glass stone cold like a deep and dark abyss aloneTurning point in time
its the age of innocence it the turning point in time its the page first and last its the power of the mind can you sense it? in the cold and freezing rain the answers you must know lies in the eye of the hurricane in the window to my soul can you see it? not forsaken and not for sale where the wind forever blows at the very edge of the world between the balance and fold can you hear it? lost in heaven's endless veil where the stars punch through the sky in the heart of imagination in the twinkle of the eye can you see it? in the mist of contemplation when the clouds envelope the lies the spirit of love's salvation takes its wings and flies can you believe it?Ways of the World
the hint of a whisper leaves a shadow of doubt on wings of the wind within and without crush of the vice with fists of steel cold heart of pure ice breaking the will soul's sweet surrender to death's dark betrayal destiny's companion to the brimstones of hell the mazes of madness leaves the sight of the mind endless pit of forever for the fate of mankind? finger of God the hands of time's gate arms of destruction fear's tight embrace eyes of blind fury are the devil's disguise a cold winding highway down the secrets of life answers unknown to questions untold paths unseen before us to the ways of the worldVizard's Poetic Justice
when the cold wind blows down desperation's road in the shadows death will follow when the four horsemen come galloping they'll catch your run as your soul is swallowed so ride the lighting through the tunnel of fire feeling fears breath as it takes you higher reaching the vault, hoping for salvations unlock the door to find damnation nightmares keep on spinning past the bounds of control wicked tricks somehow have cost me this soul lost all hope and pity the fallen lost to the dark of an endless dawn succumb to pain it tortures realm abandon hope, in silence drown close your eyes and put your life in my hand there's no dying if the dream never ends.Hard Cold Crash
with a hard cold crash my broken heart his the ground smoke and ash, burning embers all around I beg for mercy take the knife and drive it home the fiery blade twists into my dying soul a hard cold crash, she's taking me down... down now wicked games, selfless hate and no control play with my mind, tortures tricks you know them all dig your talons deep into my pounding heart rip and tear, pull my worthless life apart wrap your hands, tight around my gasping throat squeeze and tighten, steal my breath from by breast my life slips past, silent screams are all I give taste in on your sultry lips and let me live hit the ground... a hard cold crash hit the ground... my dying soul with a hard cold crash my broken heart hit the ground shattered glass, broken slivers all aroundMind of a Madman
in the mind of a madman is it madness that you find? in the mind of a madman is insanity blind? temptation leads to anger anger leads to hate hate leads to imagination's attempt at twisting fate if you look into his sick and twisted mind you'll find maze that winds and turns where its all justified the burning light that leads the way the leads to a gloomy hate which lures you to the sultry bed were temptation is always led fate leads strait to peril and peril to the pearly gate when inside its peace you find leads strait to sanctity with sanctity comes power and power is like a drug drums will cloud will your simple mind now your completely lost don't leap strait to despair your path will take you there right after intuition and invention's affair if you come across his path don't look into the eyes nor try to solve his endless maze were all is justifiedShadows of Light
in the shadows of a distant land the people move without a plan blood flows and thieves run free the people live there as you and me in the shadows of a storm's eclipse fleeting fortunes fall through finger's tips silent echoes off a whisper's lips strike the air as the thunder rips in the shadows, shadows of light they shall hide in the plain of sight they shall be sought and never found they may be caught and not be bound with a vision create a plan hone the skills of the son of man teach the values of wrong and right then walk the streets in the shadows of lightThoughts of Regret
is your mind filled with thoughts of regret? unanswered questions you can not forget? what would have happened? what could have been? if only I'd gone back and did it over again... did you find glory? how bout that gain? only headache, sorrow, and pain? was the pressure to much, did you settle for less? did you lose inspiration or become average at best? was it all worth it, did you follow your dreams? did you fly to the stars with those wings? was the day you left home the day you died? when you packed all your things did you leave them behind? thoughts of regret should be left behind seek our your visionWhere the Rose Resides
hear the playground ride the merry go round see the rose in the world as it spins round I dream of life lost in the rush I reach for dreams I can not touch she sends a message that turns no wrong I gasp at shadows long after they're gone within these boundaries I can not blast her rose resides and forever lasts a perfect pedals red shadow is cast perfume lingers on beauty's senseless acts in the breeze she sings to me on the sunlight, through the breeze in the breeze she sings to me a bed of roses a symphony within memories not yet born the seed is planted and the rose takes form roses bloom within my mind and endless garden no one can fine pictured image to never touch lips sweet whispers heart felt love a skin so soft like satin peals I've loved and lost within my world it never withers and never dies with me in death this rose will lyeNo words Left to Right
like the wind blowing through the autumn mist I can feel my body fading can you see the tide still rolling in? pounding until heaven's shore are opened I can feel the heartbeat of time ticking down my spine in sadness my mind lays sill and quiet, I can feel my body dying this heart barely keeps this mind body living, can you see the tide still rolling? pain; my only friend, my only feeling. the autumn winds still blowing all else is lost and forgotten, I can feel my sprit soaring my limits pushed so very often but can you see my sprit broken the pain subsides and is pushed aside as I can feel my body going as the on rush of numbness comes setting in can feel my last nerves sparking only the pounding of my heart is felt, pounding until the gates swing open if death comes to take my soul that feels so lost in depression I could die a thousand times with words left to right I can feel the heartbeat of time ticking down my spine I could have died a thousand time and still had no words left to right
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